A song my friends and I sang for a friend who's truly missed! May you rest in Love my dear Hawaiian Brother, Tyson Ahlo!
FLYING WITH ANGELS
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
A new day; a new begining :)
So yesterday wasn't the best day of my life;I've come to realize that when at joy; I still need to remember who's made it possible;
remember why I'm able to be happy all over again..
I realized my relationship with God had come to a falling point;
I forgot about him, when I suddenly felt life coming back to me..
Little did I know; that it was only temporary...
I hold the key to my heart once more;
I prayed that the next time its given away?
It's through God's choice and not mine;
I cried; I weeped; I reaped exactly what I had sowed;
and woke up feeling guilty, but stronger and wiser.
Thank God for another day of life, after feeling so hopeless yesterday?
I woke up remembering how precious my life is; and how much I enjoy every speck of it..
Just because I've failed in one way? doesn't mean my whole life is over now;
I remembered to pick myself up and now work on what's really important;
My relationship with God, It's not at its best, but to work on it is a step to success :)
I'm grateful for everything I have and is blessed with today,
And I couldn't ask for more; I'm blessed to have such a faithful God,
Who's always there at my worse moments; and all ready to pick me up and heal my wounded soul,
I'm blessed to have such loving people in my life as well; who are willing to remind me what it is that I need to better myself and my situation :)
Today I stand here with my life back on the right track;
There's no giving up now :) it's time for CHANGE .. and that my friend?
IS ONE HELL OF A GOOD CHANGE! LOL!!
James 4:8
Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
GOD IS LOVE♥
SMAxXx♥
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I'm what you call an ESFP! LOL!!
Portrait of an ESFP
Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling)
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The Performer
As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.
ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.
ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.
For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.
ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.
The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.
ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".
ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.
The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.
ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.
The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Extraverted Sensing
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Intuition
(Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling)
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The Performer
As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.
ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.
ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.
For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.
ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.
The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.
ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".
ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.
The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.
ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.
The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Extraverted Sensing
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Intuition
Monday, June 7, 2010
the BeST is yet 2 cOme♥
another writing from the past.. ENJOY!
the BeST is yet 2 cOme♥For a decent time, I’ve managed to put up a wall, if ever approached by men,
Promising, never to blind myself in a situation with a broken heart to mend.
I have situations in the past, that till this day, they haunt me,
All the pain and agony those memories bring, I choose to hide in the shadows with out glee,
Up Until I discovered myself putting my trust and honesty in you.
I then realized that my walls were slowly tumbling, just to find out if what I‘m feeling is true.
For sometime, I haven’t been able to be myself and open up towards men,
I always found myself, closing in when ever they tried to be more than just a friend,
But I’ve realized, that it’s all changed, when I found myself finding words to get a dose,
Or just a hint of conversation, watching my every move so I don‘t get too close,
Hoping not to scare you away, and only wish u would feel the same.
Though, your situation, I wouldn’t dare to interfere, which is why I’ve always hated the game.
I begin to feel the weight of guilt, while I realize these feelings begin to arise,
Wondering what to do now? Leaving me scared, in tears to abide.
I wake up every day, wondering how long will these feelings last inside of me,
Contemplating on how am I going to deal with them, with out having you to see,
Should I avoid you, and hope for things to get better in the end?
Or should I continue on, with just being your friend?
Knowing that I can’t be that person I want to be for you,
Tears me into pieces; wishing I knew the very thing to do,
To overcome these feelings, and not let it ruin what we’ve already got,
But help build a stronger bondage, and look pass this as a funny thought.
Promising, never to blind myself in a situation with a broken heart to mend.
I have situations in the past, that till this day, they haunt me,
All the pain and agony those memories bring, I choose to hide in the shadows with out glee,
Up Until I discovered myself putting my trust and honesty in you.
I then realized that my walls were slowly tumbling, just to find out if what I‘m feeling is true.
For sometime, I haven’t been able to be myself and open up towards men,
I always found myself, closing in when ever they tried to be more than just a friend,
But I’ve realized, that it’s all changed, when I found myself finding words to get a dose,
Or just a hint of conversation, watching my every move so I don‘t get too close,
Hoping not to scare you away, and only wish u would feel the same.
Though, your situation, I wouldn’t dare to interfere, which is why I’ve always hated the game.
I begin to feel the weight of guilt, while I realize these feelings begin to arise,
Wondering what to do now? Leaving me scared, in tears to abide.
I wake up every day, wondering how long will these feelings last inside of me,
Contemplating on how am I going to deal with them, with out having you to see,
Should I avoid you, and hope for things to get better in the end?
Or should I continue on, with just being your friend?
Knowing that I can’t be that person I want to be for you,
Tears me into pieces; wishing I knew the very thing to do,
To overcome these feelings, and not let it ruin what we’ve already got,
But help build a stronger bondage, and look pass this as a funny thought.
1 John 4:8
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love♥.
SMAxXx♥
Saturday, June 5, 2010
.. a piece frOm the past... LOL!
another piece from the past :) ENJOY!
UntitledBeen put through many hardship and tragedies,
Many obstacles of the past life, have haunted me, Afraid to find myself curled up into tears,
Afraid to face another heartbreak that’ll last for years,
Unwilling to take a risk in life,
Unwilling to experience the taste of strife.
I’m torn, hurt and shattered completely,
Don’t wanna go backwards just to see me, fall deeply,
In love and backtracked to the very beginning.
Regretting every aspect of your existence, and my stupidity.
Sick of having to repeat these wearing steps of heartbreak,
There’s only so much oneself can intake.
They say not to chase after love,
Let it come to you as a gift sent from above.
How much longer are we to wait?
Will it be my destiny? Will it be fate?
Many obstacles of the past life, have haunted me, Afraid to find myself curled up into tears,
Afraid to face another heartbreak that’ll last for years,
Unwilling to take a risk in life,
Unwilling to experience the taste of strife.
I’m torn, hurt and shattered completely,
Don’t wanna go backwards just to see me, fall deeply,
In love and backtracked to the very beginning.
Regretting every aspect of your existence, and my stupidity.
Sick of having to repeat these wearing steps of heartbreak,
There’s only so much oneself can intake.
They say not to chase after love,
Let it come to you as a gift sent from above.
How much longer are we to wait?
Will it be my destiny? Will it be fate?
Thursday, June 3, 2010
"Stupidity"
More writings from the past.. LOL! enjoy!!
"Stupidity"
Contemplating bout them feelings I've felt for you,
Wondering why did I let myself go and fall for you so soon?
Thinkin' bout the past, dreads me to face the present,
Wishin' for things to work out; yet still hesitant.
I had faith in you, faith in us,
Faith that love would easily bestow upon us in a rush,
Like the feeling of being flared-up,
Adrenaline junkie; shivering withdraws tearin' you up,
The thrill of taking risks with no regrets,
Yet I find myself back to where you left.
Repetitive, a cycle, a bad habit I plead,
The wrath of anger, charges through me indeed.
Feeling lost and confused, perfectly incomplete,
Wondering why do I put myself through such trouble and defeat?
Knowing I have a better head on my shoulder, yet oblige,
Blinded by your words, and suddenly hit with pain,
Pain I can't control; leaving prints in me; your stain.
Another chance? Never again!
these hurtful imprints of yours? will forever remain.
Wondering why did I let myself go and fall for you so soon?
Thinkin' bout the past, dreads me to face the present,
Wishin' for things to work out; yet still hesitant.
I had faith in you, faith in us,
Faith that love would easily bestow upon us in a rush,
Like the feeling of being flared-up,
Adrenaline junkie; shivering withdraws tearin' you up,
The thrill of taking risks with no regrets,
Yet I find myself back to where you left.
Repetitive, a cycle, a bad habit I plead,
The wrath of anger, charges through me indeed.
Feeling lost and confused, perfectly incomplete,
Wondering why do I put myself through such trouble and defeat?
Knowing I have a better head on my shoulder, yet oblige,
Blinded by your words, and suddenly hit with pain,
Pain I can't control; leaving prints in me; your stain.
Another chance? Never again!
these hurtful imprints of yours? will forever remain.
II Timothy 1:7
For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.
GOD IS LOVE♥
SMAxXx♥
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
CONFiDENCE♥
Just a lil bit of som'n i wrote in the past :) ENJOY!After being put through so much in life,
I have finally found the courage to stand up and let it all go.
Discovering that I’ll never be able to love like I’ve never loved before,
Till I find love within myself and love within the importance of life.
I’ve always wondered , why did God choose me to deal with all these trials and tribulations?
Why do I have to experience such severe agony so early in life?
And as I overlook the life that I’ve conquered and endured,
I have grown stronger than most woman I know,
Stronger within myself; physically, emotionally and mentally.
And to just know the courageousness and strength that I have gained,
I do know now, to why God has chosen me, to fight through those hardships.
I have yet to search and learn more to life,
I trust that all is in God’s hands, and will be lead towards anything he feels that I can exceed.
Or anything I can prevail and redeem.
I’m not the perfect person, and I’ll never be that “PERFECT” one,
But I can be the BEST yet, or I can also be the WORSE.
Whatever the results define, I know that I’m a dayum good person.
A person who’s triumphed over many obstacles,
A person who’s cares for others before herself,
A person who loves unconditionally, whether you’re the enemy or friend.
A person who lives, as if there’s no tomorrow.
One that laughs to every excitement in life.
One who’s strong, when the other is weak.
An independent and intelligent woman is what I am.
Whether you love me, despise me, or want to be like me?
I am who I am, and nothing’s ever going to change that ;]
I have finally found the courage to stand up and let it all go.
Discovering that I’ll never be able to love like I’ve never loved before,
Till I find love within myself and love within the importance of life.
I’ve always wondered , why did God choose me to deal with all these trials and tribulations?
Why do I have to experience such severe agony so early in life?
And as I overlook the life that I’ve conquered and endured,
I have grown stronger than most woman I know,
Stronger within myself; physically, emotionally and mentally.
And to just know the courageousness and strength that I have gained,
I do know now, to why God has chosen me, to fight through those hardships.
I have yet to search and learn more to life,
I trust that all is in God’s hands, and will be lead towards anything he feels that I can exceed.
Or anything I can prevail and redeem.
I’m not the perfect person, and I’ll never be that “PERFECT” one,
But I can be the BEST yet, or I can also be the WORSE.
Whatever the results define, I know that I’m a dayum good person.
A person who’s triumphed over many obstacles,
A person who’s cares for others before herself,
A person who loves unconditionally, whether you’re the enemy or friend.
A person who lives, as if there’s no tomorrow.
One that laughs to every excitement in life.
One who’s strong, when the other is weak.
An independent and intelligent woman is what I am.
Whether you love me, despise me, or want to be like me?
I am who I am, and nothing’s ever going to change that ;]
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be brave and strong! Don't be afraid of the nations on the other side of the Jordan. The Lord your God will always be at your side, and he will never abandon you.
GOD iS LOVE♥
SMAxXx♥
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- Honolulu, Hawaii, United States
- Just an island girl blooming into womanhood finding her way in life … lol