-off top what's on ma mind ..

The anger, that rages in me,

wishes to have never read, what i had just seen,

Confused on where I should stand,

Confused on what I want to do with you before hand.

You've lead me to believe that "Love" could reLIVE in me,

yet you took the deepest part of my faith,

and turned it all around in a snap without glee.

- thass what it is ... "/

Temptations . . .

off top what's on ma mind ... aight here goes . . . .

Never ending trials; these tribulations they haunt me;

The Devil, he wins me over, constantly;

Strength to pull through; temptations to fight daily;

A great emancipation awaits me;
or the choice to being slave, obtains me;

Slowly, I feel my heart weakening;

Struct by that beastly energy;

I fall into the streams of loathesome authority;

The guilt, the anguish, they begin to arise

sudden feelings of sorrow; I begin to subside;

Why is temptation so hard to decline?

Why am I sitting here in subliminal failure, denied?

Knowing what's best for me, I still seek the unright;

Stupidity & selfishness; no longer to hide.

Time flies, still, I lie in the mist of dark shadows;

As life makes a U-turn, I no longer wish for this battle;

An abundant weight weakens me; i slowly begin to crumble;

A cycle revealed before me, my heart wishes to never stumble;

Pleading for my guilt, forgiveness I ask Thee, without fumble;

Take my heart once more; renew it and make it humble.

For I have sinned and done great things against your will,

Lord, don't forsake me nor break me; but take me upon that hill;

The hill of Calvary so I may feel the pain and agony; be still;

In rememberance of the tragedy that brought men to kill;

So that I may learn once more of your love, unconditionally sent in your will.

Forgive me, Lord, purify my heart once more;

Never will I look back, but forward and seek what's instored. . .

REST IN HEAVENLY PEACE BROTHER TYSON AHLO♥

A song my friends and I sang for a friend who's truly missed! May you rest in Love my dear Hawaiian Brother, Tyson Ahlo!

FLYING WITH ANGELS

A new day; a new begining :)

So yesterday wasn't the best day of my life;
I've come to realize that when at joy; I still need to remember who's made it possible;

remember why I'm able to be happy all over again..

I realized my relationship with God had come to a falling point;

I forgot about him, when I suddenly felt life coming back to me..

Little did I know; that it was only temporary...

I hold the key to my heart once more;

I prayed that the next time its given away?

It's through God's choice and not mine;

I cried; I weeped; I reaped exactly what I had sowed;

and woke up feeling guilty, but stronger and wiser.

Thank God for another day of life, after feeling so hopeless yesterday?

I woke up remembering how precious my life is; and how much I enjoy every speck of it..

Just because I've failed in one way? doesn't mean my whole life is over now;

I remembered to pick myself up and now work on what's really important;

My relationship with God, It's not at its best, but to work on it is a step to success :)

I'm grateful for everything I have and is blessed with today,

And I couldn't ask for more; I'm blessed to have such a faithful God,

Who's always there at my worse moments; and all ready to pick me up and heal my wounded soul,

I'm blessed to have such loving people in my life as well; who are willing to remind me what it is that I need to better myself and my situation :)

Today I stand here with my life back on the right track;

There's no giving up now :) it's time for CHANGE .. and that my friend?

IS ONE HELL OF A GOOD CHANGE! LOL!!

James 4:8
Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

GOD IS LOVE♥

SMAxXx♥

I'm what you call an ESFP! LOL!!

Portrait of an ESFP

Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling)

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The Performer

As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.

ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.

ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.

For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.

ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.

The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.

ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".

ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.

ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.

The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Extraverted Sensing
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Intuition